Alright folks so I haven’t been posting for a while for a variety of reasons. I’ve named a few in the past but the shortest version is this: life changes.
In the informal hiatus I took just before Halloween I had a sort of perspective giving moment. I drew a Halloween type picture, which is becoming a yearly tradition, and posted it to instagram and it did pretty well. Like not viral or anything but significantly better most anything I had posted for a while before and, notably, much (much) better than most of my posts on here do (like ever).
The second thing that made me think, was a passing comment one of my son’s friends asked me in passing “Fin, how did you get to draw to good?” to which I replied “Umm…I just draw.” which wasn’t intended to sound snarky nor obtuse but it was the only honest answer I could give since I haven’t really had a regular drawing habit and I’m not an art student but it made me reconsider the quality of my work.
The third thing that made me think was when I was showing a phone pic of the same drawing to a stranger he asked me “Bro, you drew this? Is it for sale? How much”.
This last one hit me in particular because I have not been offered money for something I created often in my life. Once before but that was a fluke, probably.
After this I had a bit of a revelation/crisis cycle where I began questioning all the writing I’ve ever done and the subsequent choices I’ve made because of it (also I began seriously examining the novel I’ve been working on but have put on hold for over 6 months without serious examination of why) and began putting all the effort I had been “reserving” for writing (but I wasn’t using it for anything except when I got hyper anxious and felt a serious *need* do create something, anything) and put into drawing: all the drawing projects I’ve said I wanted to do but never had time for, drawing the adventure comics, drawing more one off comics, drawing all the scenes from the novel that I’m trying to write, drawing the visions that kept visiting my dreams over and over through the years etc etc.
It’s been a slow process but I have found that drawing has given me something writing hasn’t for a very long time: flow. I frequently finding my self loosing 10s of minutes or an hour or two drawing (whether it be the initial sketch, linework, colouring, texturing, doodling, etc) which has been liberating and empowering as a creator because loosing passion for that which you love and not having something else there that can placate, place hold, or even replace is a deeply hollow feeling.
This isn’t to say I’m giving up on writing or this blog or anything but I am here to announce a shift in efforts and a different approach. The primary change is I’m going to change the face of this site to be a focused showcase of my comics, art, and contact info. Most of the posts will still be available in the archives but in the meantime there will be some down pages.
The second announcement is I plan to start a new blog that is much more focused on books and stories. I will be focusing on books and stories that are bizarre, overlooked, and/or under-appreciated (all subjective superlatives, of course). I plan to mostly stick to book reviews with very light spoilers (when it cannot be avoided). I haven’t built the new site yet, I just got a new laptop to replace my old laptop which was on lend and got recalled (another reason for the hiatus) but I will have a forwarding link on the homepage when it does go live.
That’s all for now folks. I, as Fin, am signing off “Offbeat On-point: A Literary Blog…kinda” for the last time but when I post here again it will still be as Fin but from “Offbeat On-point Comics: Offbeat comics for On-point people”.